ADHD

Struggling with "I can’t"

Though I frequently succeed at putting forth a facade of effectiveness, I frequently struggle with the words “I can’t” and their impact on my ability to make things happen.
I am thinking it over and over today. I’m in one of those spaces right now where the “I can’t” voice is very loud. I had a disappointment yesterday, that’s probably part of it (an event didn’t go as well as I’d hoped). I believe too, that part of it is anxiety.
I know that my to-do list is large, and I keep telling myself that I will feel better about everything if I just push forward, and into, and through, and past the list. But all I want to do right now is climb into a blanket and burrito myself into a silent cocoon.
The reality, the fact of the situation, is that even when you are self-employed, you still have things that you HAVE to do, if you want to retain any hope of paying your bills. I will push past this. I will make at least a healthy dent in this list. But today it will be a struggle. 
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