It’s easy for me to write about anxiety and ADHD. It is not easy to write about depression. And so I don’t.
I think I avoid writing about it for two reasons. First…the desire to isolate is a symptom. Second…holy crap, sometimes my list making annoys even me…SECOND…when you are hoping something will just go away, you really don’t want to dwell on it. For me, depression usually goes away, eventually…so I alternate retreating into it and ignoring it.
It’s not going away this time. Not yet anyway.
Don’t worry…I have mental health professionals. I’ve already talked to them and I’ll talk to them again at dates that have already been determined. I’ll be fine. I’m generally quite resilient. I know this, and I remind myself frequently.
I am making myself write this because isolating is probably the worst thing to do. Because others know what this feels like and when you feel this way the only thing worse than desiring isolation, is feeling like you are alone.
You’re not. I’m not. And it’s not forever even if it feels that way right now.