For a week, I have been looking for my flip-flops. I only own one pair, and our home is not very large…this should not be a big mystery, and yet, swearing has occurred on a few occasions. And he mystery has plagued me.
Simultaneously, I have been fully aware that my flip-flops were in fact on the front porch with dog poo stuck to the bottom of them…which is why they were not in the house!
That means that at least a dozen times in the past week, I have walked around the house looking for them, swearing about them, yearning for them…and have then put on other shoes and walked out the door, passing the flip-flops on the porch, even looking at them as I walk by and thinking “dang, I wonder if I’ll ever get that poop off of them”. And: zero dots have connected in my brain. It’s like having two parallel universes exist side-by-side in my brain! It’s magic!
I used to call these moments “stupidest smart girl in the world” moments…followed by the big bang where suddenly it all comes together. Two days ago I walked past them on the porch and thought “oh man, I really need to figure out how to get the poop off of those buggers…” kept walking and then suddenly thought “OH…OH…wait…oh…wow, my flip-flops”. Sonny had even discovered them and actually tried to get the poop off of them during their absence. and then put them back..however, I did not realize this without him telling me because I was just so excited to see them that I didn’t even notice the poop was gone.
It’s times like these when I feel compelled to point out that I’m a person with a Masters’ Degree and who generally has jobs that require a high degree of responsibility. I am able to function in academia, in daily life, and in relation to my employment…JUST FINE with a bit of extra effort. and I put that effort in, big time This is one of the points I try to drive home through writing this blog. “Having ADHD” doesn’t have to mean you don’t have a productive life, it just means you need to be attentive to the quirks and the curves of your non-linear thinking, and address those quirks in realistic ways…and be prepared to work your ass off. If I have to leave a garbage can in the doorway to remind me to take garbage out…fine. If I have to organize everything on my desk in folders that are labeled in a particular way, in effect organizing my very brain on my desktop…then that’s what I do! If I have to set up my morning the night before, in a series of visual cues so that I can more effectively get through my day…then allllright.
But dang, I can’t believe I couldn’t find my flip-flops right in front of my face like that! Really, it’s a perfect example of why I need to organize myself the way I do at work, and when working on projects that actually affect other people 🙂