And let me tell you, ADHD has not been the only obstacle in getting to this point. As I was trying to finish my homework (and I had a FUCKTON of homework to finish) I ended up at the emergency room last week after trying to pass out in my office, twice. Once, you can ignore and chalk up to chance, twice is “holy crap, am I having a stroke?”. So off to the ER I went, mentally confused, lightheaded, spinny, fatigued and officially wondering if I was going to make it to the academic finishing line.
I’m still not feeling great…they’re still running tests…but I pushed through this, and past my ADHD end-of-the-semester-freak-out, and I did it.
I finished my awful soul-draining project that I was hating. And in the very last course that I needed to finish work for…the professor and I made an agreement that I would just keep turning in work until I had enough points for a B–and call it good. With a B in that course, I still graduate with better than a 3.5. I graduated as an undergrad with a 2.6. This difference, in itself in a huge achievement for me.
So here I have sat for the last few days, on my couch, spinny, fatigued…cranking out assignment after assignment until I finally got an email from my professor saying “You have enough points for a B. If it’s okay with you, I’ll go ahead and post that grade for you.”.
A one way ticket home from purgatory.
I’ll take it.
I’m taking it all the way to the graduation ceremony this weekend.