So a couple week ago, she asks me about this seminar, and I say yes, and I put it on my calendar.
All last week and all day yesterday I’m talking to people about how I’m going to this seminar.
Um…I work until 6 on Tuesdays. Um. As I closing the shop, my sister is texting me going “I’m waiting for you outside the house, where ARE you, we’re late!?”.
I really can’t tell you what I was thinking. It was on my calendar. Work was also on my calendar (EVERYTHING is in my calendar or NOTHING gets done). I looked at it 100 times that day. I looked at it 100 times the day before to make sure I had it on there for the right day, to make sure I didn’t miss it.
I felt like I was in the Twilight Zone. All day I had this vision of how I was going to have plenty of time at the end of the work day to go to my sisters house, play with the dogs, and then go to the class.
Oh wait, I wasn’t in the Twilight Zone, I was in my own ADHD brain 🙂 If you are a non-ADHDer and you are reading this…please know, I’m a really smart person, who is really really organized. But when your damn brain misfires like that…? WTF can you do?!
Frustrating. Sister wasn’t thrilled. We got there 20 mins late. I’m glad we went, I was just sad about disappointing her. I explained what happened (uh, OH SHIT, ADHD SUCKS! I’m sorry!) but…she was disappointed, I could tell. She’d even called me and texted me earlier in the day to make sure I was on my shit. “Of course” I told her “I’m looking forward to it!” because I really was.
I think the problem was…I started this part time job on Thursdays from 10am to 4pm. I’ve been there for over a year. Only a couple of months ago we added the Tuesday shift, which goes from 12pm-6pm. In my brain I was thinking “I’m at the shop, that means I’m done at 4”.
It often takes my brain a while to catch up with a change in routine…and of course it takes MONTHS to create routines that work for me in the first place. Even a small change is confusing for me…which is why I’m SO meticulous about putting things on my calendar. Which I check all the time. But which doesn’t display end times on calendar items…gah…mayeb there’s a way to make it do that, I need to check….