"But You’re So Smart, Why Can’t You Focus?"

I want to thank Jeff of “Jeff’s A.D.D. Mind” for bringing up this issue, first of all because it’s fascinating, and second because I think it’s part of why I was not diagnosed with ADHD until adulthood. (See JEFF’S POST)

Sometimes really gifted students just seem ADHD. Read the info that Jeff posted and you’ll see why. Sometimes gifted students actually also have ADHD. I was identified early on as a gifted student…a label of ADHD never came into the picture until, well, just this year, although it was a possibility I’d tossed around for many years.

For me, what it comes down to is impairment…do these things that could be giftedness or ADHD cause me impairment? Yes, absolutely, and that’s why I sought treatment. But I didn’t seek treatment because my smartness was just killin’ me, I sought treatment because impulsiveness, stimulation-seeking, a cluttered mind, and inability to land my thoughts was driving me nuts and creating obstacles for me. I was unable to really grow and nurture my ideas, because the ADHD was getting in the way, at least that’s the way I see it. Trying ADHD meds, even at this early stage of experimentation, has only convinced me of this…in general, the medications do not obscure my personality, in fact, I feel that they help me see the line more clearly between my native thoughts, and ADHD symptoms. With medication I have all the same thoughts and feelings, they just don’t hit me like a hailstorm…I can examine them and sort through them and enjoy them more. And after 33 years of being me I have a pretty good idea of what I am capable of and what I have to “cope” my way around like mad…I’d finally had it with shooting myself in the ass, and with my inability to live my life in any real depth.

Whether or not I end up continuing with medication in the long, or even the short term, I am still grateful for this experience, of being able to see that line for the first time….it’s given me greater, deeper insight into myself, important information that will make it easier for me to make different kinds of choices from the ones that were impairing me.


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